almost march

It is raining! This makes me feel hopeful.  I feel like I can wear different clothes, take out my camera again… I don’t know… It might be Spring soon?  Spring with a big, big “S”.

I was fooled a few times this week.  I looked outside and saw the sun shining only to be met at the front door by bitter cold.  I have been working so hard at fighting my worst tendencies.  I usually fall prey to weather I don’t enjoy.  I spiral into my worse self: self pitying, slothful, depressive (and slightly obsessive) dullard.  Maybe everyone goes through that with the seasons?  I don’t know.  I have worked hard against that: daydreaming about color combinations and simplistic furniture while I clear out and clean our little hole-in-the-wall, playing with my old guitar, looking for new music and movies and books to fall in love with, forcing my child to experience things that will keep him from becoming a house zombie.

We did get outside today.  The sun was so lovely!  I mean, the wind was not too pleasant, but the sun was lovely!  I made the child march around town and look in windows with me.  We split yakitori and gyoza for lunch and had a good talk about his likes and dislikes.  A deal was struck: extra walking in exchange for movie time.  Less guilt that way?  He watched his movie while I watched “Rachel Getting Married” on my laptop with headphones (any of my entertainment is reduced to this during his waking hours).

I was pleasantly surprised by that movie, btw.   Isn’t it terrible that I am surprised when I really like a movie?  Maybe it is more terrible that my opinion of a movie can be largely influenced by musicians making cameos and Mr. Noodle (well, Bill Irwin) as nothing like Mr. Noodle.  Maybe I just thought I would hate Ann(e?) Hathaway because of the ads for that other wedding movie she was in last year.  Most likely all of the above.  I mean, if you want me to like a movie certainly have Robyn Hitchcock just standing around singing in the backyard like it is the sort of thing one would expect to see at any wedding and the guy from TV on the Radio as the groom and OMG Sister Carol just walking off of the porch singing “Natty Dread Congo”????  I am predictable that way… the sort of person you don’t want to be sitting with during a movie when Sister Carol comes out.. because I know you don’t care that I saw her years ago, etc.  You probably don’t want me to talk about Robyn Hitchcock and the memories of being 15 that I will suddenly be inspired to talk about.  I understand all of that. It is the stuff that makes my sister punch me in the arm.

I am lost in my entry now.  Oops. I no longer get sleepy, I get lost. Speaking of lost: on my way to work tonight I ended up in the middle of some sort of big police event.  I was pulled over and told to make a quick detour as the cops filled the street and I mean FILLED the street.  I don’t know why I was suddenly worried that all 6 (or more?) cars were there for me, somehow.  I can’t think of a thing in the world that they would want from me yet it seems so likely the second I see all of the blue lights.

Time to do other stuff.

tuesdays are the best sometimes

They are like my weekends in a weird way.  I am still not so up to prose-y descriptions of what I have been up to.  Lists are good.

1. I am working hard (and sort of failing at this point) on bringing an old guitar back to life.  My only goal is for it to be somewhat tune-able.  Not so easy with a warped neck.

2. This week’s episode of “Big Love” made me cry a lot.  My husband needs to catch up so I can talk to him about it.   I am currently alone in my “Big Love” appreciation.  Anyone?  Anyone?  Maybe this show hits harder for people who are ex-fundamental-ish anything?  I don’t know.

3.  My love of dub music (and many sub-genres of it) has been reborn.  Thank you to the internet and the endless amounts of stuff you can try and become obsessed with.  This is worth mentioning because there is almost no better feeling than falling in love with a new artist or finding a new combination of mp3s that makes your heart race, right? Right?

4. I had this “stomach-thing” that took me down for a solid four days.  I was completely drained!  I am back full-force.  I am!  I just don’t feel the same way about food, for some reason.

5.  Water is good.  #4 has re-affirmed that.

6.  We have no plans for today… well, my husband is at a seminar for work… but the child and I have no plans for today.

7.  Joe (the bigger) taught Joe (the smaller) to pee standing up while I was sleeping.  Is there any sort of Dad more fabulous than he?  I don’t think so.

8.  Run!  Yes! I have (other than the weak and shakey down-time) been back to running.  A 5k in September may not sound like much of a challenge to any serious runner out there but for me it is something and I am damn excited.  I am actually excited to hit that treadmill tonight.  Running is the vice I aspire to.  I have left all of my other vices behind…

9. I wish it was spring… maybe even summer. I wish I was outside this morning, reading in the sun as the boy gets to run around and play with children.  Actual children! Not the ones we make up to amuse ourselves inside all day.

10. We were making this incredible plan last night.  Before the little guy is too old to dislike us we will take road trip across the country.  Who wouldn’t love to see most of the country before they were 10?  We could even make a little family documentary.

I guess that is all that has been up with me (that is interesting enough to write about… no one really wants to know about my quest for the perfect moisturizer or how my husband was sneezing all night, right?)

Have a nice week.

some people

have been sick and have too much stuff to catch up on in one entry.  Maybe after I sleep a lot I will have some idea of how to get back to this blog thing.

washing stuff, reading, listening to the news…

working. 

I am in a better mood than I have been.  I was fighting off something that never materialized and, as is common for me when I am tired and feeling ick, it put me in a funk.  I am out of the funk.  Seriously…

January has been getting to me!!!  I daydream about the long days my son and I used to spend doing stuff at places that weren’t our living room.  I can’t think of anywhere to go these days.  Ug.  Tonight I am toying with the idea of planning a small get-away with my mom and the tot.  Maybe that would be a fun time?  I think it could be.  I have some ideas…. hmm.

So anyway.  What have I been up to?  NOTHING.  That is why this blog seems to have become a bit of a disaster.  I have no random pics to post, no adventures to describe.  If interesting things have been happening to me I have been too blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah to write about them! 

I have this food blog that I started and just can’t get into! That could be a fun project?  More fun when I feel happy to be inside… not a prisoner held against my will (and that would be the weather keeping me in.  Joe doesn’t have a secert dark-side that people aren’t seeing).

Hm.

Five things I have been up to:

1. Feeling better about some things I was feeling grumpy about.  I patched things up with the not-dead friend.  Well, patched things up?  They didn’t need patching.  I was just being paranoid. Yup.

2. Starting another huge fitness push.  I am two weeks in and… gah.  3.5 lbs down.  I was down five and mysteriously crept up 1.5, though I worked my damn butt off on Thursday.  There is always this week to work EVEN HARDER.  Yes.  My son has taken interest in being my personal trainer.  Not only do we start the day doing yoga together, he has taken a liking into yelling out for me to do calisthenics.  What have I got myself into?

3. Working a bit.  That is what I am doing right now.  I am actually working, don’t worry.  I am capable of quickly clicking at this keyboard while the other computer cranks out the necessary print-outs.  Plus, I haven’t seen a human in hours.

4. Giving out advice.  Hmph.  I do that a lot, lately.  People ask for my advice and then don’t take advice.  It wears me out a little. 

5. Cleaning the refridgerator, the bathroom.- filing our taxes- working out month-to-month budgets… stuff.

 

Five things I will be up to:

1. Steam cleaning the bathroom rug.  Good times!

2. Picking out and looking for deals on new living room furniture. 

3. Figuring out a recipe my husband has been dreaming of since he saw a show about Singapore.

4. Sleeping- the best part of working overnights is getting to come home on Sunday and sleep during the day… without guilt.

5. More exercise.

 

I will get interesting again, I swear.  ATUIDOPfi e0 i30wefdi dpofiopr3ri ef